Being a special education teacher, a mom and a wife come with immense responsibility. The load that I had for the past three years had been extremely unsurmountable. I had countless sleepless nights. I had undeniable frustrations. Anger and resentment enveloped my emotions. Every single day, I had struggled with going to work. I wanted to quit but I am remorseful as the school year just started. I am totally enervated, mentally, emotionally, physically and psychologically exhausted. Giving up came to mind. I wanted to leave the profession I had been longing to have. I had depression and anxiety, waking up crying and hopeless.
One time, there was this post of The 700 Club Asia on Facebook I came across with. I don't remember exactly what it was. The only thing I remember was I noticed myself longing for the show every single day. Watching THe 700 Club Asia shows and listening to podcasts, awakened the physical power, the fortitude and resilience I thought I never have. In addition, I have been listening to Christian music almost all day. I can't stop praying, weeping for mercy and compassion. Hungry of the love and grace of God, my dream foundation was established. It is called Pioneer of Hope. This family set up foundation aims at proclaiming the goodness that God had blessed me and my family with. Its mission is to empower the community to trust even when it's difficult, through its charitable donations to poverty-stricken communities around the world.
Day by day, my mind and my heart had cravings for more words of God. I have been reading the Bible, listening and watching more motivational and inspirational videos. I have also called and emailed the Prayer Center for both The 700 Club here in the US and The 700 Club Asia. Truly, there was a change. I felt the ease in my heart and mind. In Matthew 11:28-29 states, "Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke on you and learn from me., because I am gentle and humble in heart and you will find rest for your souls." Truly God is humble and gentle, he soothes my aching mind and soul. He gave me wisdom and compassion.
I am genuinely grateful with how God blessed and redirected my path. I learned to praise him and his magnificent works. Candidly, He opened the impossible for me. He sent angels to protect and guide me. My students who can be so rude and disrespectful are now angels in my eyes. The struggles I face are now being diverted into triumphant moments to spread the goodness of God. The pains I now feel are the miracles of my future, that God can heal all wounds and afflictions. The hopelessness and the failures are valuable ways I can see the light and the abundant life God has promised in Jeremiah 29:11, "For I know what I have planned for you, " says the Lord. "I have plans to prosper you, not to harm you. I have plans to give a future filled with hope."
Yes, now I do everything I do for and with God. He truly is a MIGHTY and POWERFUL God.
I'm in love!
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